Witness

What will you do?
Your just minding your own business and then it happens.  You witness something you wishbyou didn't see.
It could be anything,  people having sex,  killing someone,  speaking something,  kidnapping,  anything. 
But you saw it and now you have to tell the authorities what you have seen and that means putting your own life in danger.
Even if you didn't witness a horrible thing but a minor thing like a guy or girl cheating on each other.  You as a friend will act on instinct and you will tell someone what you saw.
It's just something that everyone does.
We see things happen and we tell.
But still everyone of everything is a witness if we want to or not.

New beginning

Am in a new place now.
I have new friends mix with the old ones.
I let other people that i pust away get close and i like how it is now.
Finely i have balance in my life and it will stay that way until i want to change it.

That book

Do you ever had that one book that you just want to read over and over and over again.  Because it's so much fun to read.
Well i do.
And i have read that book over 55 times this year alone.
I just love it.

Playing mind games

This guy is the guy who made me fall for him in just a few days.
He made me trust him in just a few days.
And then he just stopped talking to me and it pist me off.
So next time that i see him, payback will be a bitch. And karma will be good to me.

Love you

You show me that you love me by just being there for me. By getting mad when boys don't be have like they have to when they are around me. You show me that you love me every time i want to talk and you really listen to me. And there is so much more that i can say. But know that i know how much you love me. Don't think that when i cry and you don't cry with me that you are holding back. I know you are trying to be strong for me and at that moment i need that.
Baby i love with my hole heart. From the bottom off my soul. And i can't wait until my dreams that i have when am a sleep come true. Baby you have me forever. I look forward to the day that you can really call me your wife and i can call you my husband.
I love and that will never change.
Please believe me when i say this.
Your loving future wife

Crazy

There always be people around you that can make you have fun at work.

Like this girl that i know. See is younger then me but just as much fun.

See can makr me smile and i can tell her everything that involves guy problems or life things.

We can be our selfs around each other.

Love her so much.

Friends

When your helpless or hurt and you need someone to help you or to get you the  help you need.

Then you will find out who your real friends are.

I was in the hospital last week and my friends didn't leave my side during the hole time that i was K.O.

And later they even came to see how i was doing.

Now it's vacation time and they are still checking up on me.

So you see who your real friends are.

Look

Look, for some reason, and i still don't know why. i just can't handle it, or take it, or what ever you want to call it. when your anointed or mad at me.

I don't like it, it makes me feel bad.

And as far as my feelings for you go.

I don't know if am still in love with you. If we are going back to the friendship status that we had before we were a couple. If we are friends with benefits. Or if we are just co works. I JUST DON'T KNOW ANYMORE.

Am i stupid

Am i being stupid for letting him back in to my life.
Or am ia scared to face him again.
What ever it is i don't like it.

Do you miss it

Do you miss it.
Talking to someone every second or moment of everyday.
Well i do.
I miss talking to someone as soon as i wake up or when i go to sleep.
I miss talking to someone just to know what they are doing.
I miss the contact that we had.
now it's gone and i miss it.
I'm waiting for the day that i will have that again.

You know what i see

Weet je wat ik in je zie.

I see a young fun loving guy who is always there for the people that he loves. A guy who is prepared to help people who the surf it.

I see a guy who can make me smile by just looking at me. Who is always there for me when I need him. A guy who always wants to protect me. A guy who always stands up for me when people don't respect me.

And to me honest. I see a beautiful guy that i can see spending my life with. AND I NEVER HAD THAT FEELING BEFORE.

That's how i feel, and what i see in you.

Over thinking

Stop over thinking things. And don't let negative things come back in your head because it will only make you sad. And it will make you wonder if your relationship if a good one or if you even desurf him.

Being negative

You need to stop being negative al the time. Be happy with what you have. You have a family who sometimes loves you and you have a amazing boyfriend who loves you and will do anything for you.

If we

If we ever break up i will cry for at least a month. Have the feeling that my heart is broken. That i want to crawl in to a hole and stay there. It would feel like my life is over. I would not be able to go to my internships because he would be there. I wouldn't be able to look him in the eyes. Or look at him. Or talk to him. It would be awkward and if it would be a bad break up. Then the other interns wil hate us for fighting and screaming.
So i don't want to break up for at least i while.

That person

I met the one person who can make me smile just by looking at me. Who can make me feel special by just saying that am pretty. Who can make my heart skip a beat when he touches me. Who can make my heart beat faster when he kisses me. Who can make me feel protected when I'm in his arms. He's the one person that i can tell everything. He's the one person that i can stear at al day. He's the one person that i want to have sex with. He's the one person who can make me feel like a godis. He's the guy who is not just with me because of the sex but when we're together we can't stop touching each other. He is that he is the guy that i would cry about for at least a month. But most important is that he is still my best friend.

Wonder why

Do you ever wonder why you keep fucking up things over and over and over again, when you promised the one you love the most that you would stop fucking things up. But still without knowing that your doing it, you fuck up again and again and again and again. And when you finally know that you fucked up. The person that you love is already mad at you. And then you make uo and without knowing it again. You fuck up again. You need to learn control what you do and what you say because one day you will lose the one you love and then your all alone. Stop fucking shit up and show him you love him in public not only when your alone. Because you don't want to lose him for really this time and theirs no turning back.

Hello World

Hello world,
This is my first time making a blog,  so bear with me.
My blog will be about speaking from the heart, about love, having fun and about my pain.
So have fun (or don't) by. Reading this.